I cannot wait to get back into you’re arms and never leave them. I miss you so much it hurts… I love you babe… Always and forever

Does it make people feel good? Too them does it seem like it’s gone away? Like they don’t have to deal with anything again? Why?

Lieing hurts the people around you. It makes them feel like they’re not worth the truth.. Is that what it is? We’re not worth the truth… or is it avoiding conflict… thinking that lieing will make it all go away… IT DOESN’T! it DOES NOT go away, it comes back even harder to bite you in the ass… it comes back and hurts that person that you lied too 10 times harder than it would if you would have just told them. It’s not that difficult to be truthful. Maybe you won’t like the answer of that person, but it’s a lot better than lieing. No relationship is going to last if there isn’t trust and communication… frankly, you’re lacking both.

What i don’t understand is why you can’t just tell me?. i find out every time anyways.. it makes no sense to go through the hassle of lieing when you know i’m going to find out… it’s not that difficult to understand.. It happens every single time.. there is not ONE time that you’ve lied and got away with it… sorry.. doesn’t work that way.. I’m so sick of being that last one too know. i’m sick of being the last person that you worry about. I’m not important and im sick of it. You do this every single time. We break up and you are gone for a week and then you come back and we get back together because you say you’re going to change… well that’s a bunch of BULL SHIT! because you never do. it’s always _____ ____ _____… always about you… GET OVER YOURSELF.. if you think it’s all about you all the time, you have another thing coming.

One of these days, it’s really gonna hurt you. It’s gonna come back really hard and you’re going to regret everything you’ve ever done too me. It’s going to suck and make you miserable, and i can’t wait for that day.

This post is basically just me getting my anger out, but i had to do it somewhere and this is just where it ended up.

Sorry everyone i haven’t been on here forever. It’s been a totally crazy month, actually a crazy few months. First of all, here are some songs that someone requested

-I wanna be- Chris Brown

-Superhuman (feat. Keri Hilson)- Chris Brown

-Face Drop- Sean Kingston

-Russian Roulette- Rhianna

-Quitter- Carrie Underwood

-Someday When i Stop Loving You- Carrie Underwood

-The Truth- Jason Aldean

-In evitable- Jesse James….. AMAZING song!

-19 and Crazy- Bombshel

-Whatcha Say- Jason Derulo

-BODY LANGUAGE (FEAT. T-PAIN)- Jesse McCartney…. AMAZING song!

-Bad Romance- Lady Gaga

-White Liar- Miranda Lambert– Check out the Video if you can!

-Jump Then Fall- Taylor Swift

-Forever & Always (Piano Version)- Taylor Swift

-Replay- Iyza

-Shots- LMFAO & Lil John

……………………………. those are a few of my new ones!

Relationships—-

Relationships are difficult the way that it is… Why do parents need to make it EVEN more difficult??  I understand that they want to protect us and watch out for us, but how are we supposed to find out if it’s really right for us, if we don’t make our own mistakes. They can’t protect us from everything…. Yeah, we may let a guy hurt us, but what if those feelings are still there. No matter how much you try to let go of them, their still there? How will you ever know if it’s not right, if you don’t try? How will you know if you can trust him again, unless you try? We don’t know anything, unless we try. It’s kind of hard to deal with school, relationships, family, friends, and everything else. It’s hard to juggle your time around, when one piece of that makes it 10 times harder on you than they should, that’s not right.

People make mistakes… EVERYONE makes mistakes… it’s inevitable…

— I’m not saying forgive and forget, but that doesn’t mean you shut that person out for good… You do need to try to forgive… forget, i’m not too sure about that, but forgive. Forgiveness is something that you need to be able to do… you need to be able to forgive people.

Moments change people, those little moments where something in your head just clicks and you realize what you’ve lost… When you realize how much you need that person, how much they mean to you… those are the moments that change you…

Moments Change Me..

I never thought i would get so many questions about my career choice. “Are you sure you can do that?” ” Are you sure you can handle the things you have to do with that career?” ” Are you sure that is what you want to do?” ” Are you sure you can handle that since all the stuff you went through with your dad?”

I never thought i would have so many questions… My career choice- Respiratory Therapy— Is it going to be difficult? Yes. Will there be days that I will want to quit and go home? Yes. But the reward of giving that person another breathe of  life.  Nothing compares to that… Giving that person or child ONE more chance at life. That is the greatest reward. Giving that family a little bit more time, I know fist hand how grateful a family can be for those extra few minutes— It is truely one of the greatest gifts a person can give someone else…

—So people ask me, why Respiratory Therapy?

— My answer: I want to be that person that gives that person, or child ONE more breathe, that family, one more minutes. It is one of the greatest gifts a person can give. That is why, I, Megan, want to be respiratory therapist…

-Be On You (feat. Ne-Yo)- Flo Rida

-The Mess I Made- Parachute

-Mama’s Song- Carrie Underwood

-Good Morning- Chamillionaire

-Fight Like A Girl- Bomshel

-Keep You- Sugarland

-My President- Young Jeezy & Nas

-Brick By Boring Brick- Paramore

-Why- Rascal Flatts

- God Damn You’re Beautiful- Chester See

-Looking Up- Paramore

-Love Lives On- Mallary Hope

-Hell of a Life- T.I.

-Halo/Walking on Sunshine (Glee Cast)- Glee Cast

Those are a few of my favorite songs LATELY… hope you like

Things have been looking up lately… I am completely over my little swine flu episode… I feel 100%  better. I’m back at school, i have a ton of homework to get done, but i’m starting to catch up, so that’s good. I’m getting excited because on Friday,  I am going on a tour of NDSU, where i plan on going to college. I’m pretty excited to go there and look around. Saturnday i am hopefully getting a new car that i’ve needed forever! But i finally got my mother to say a day to go so i’m pretty happy about that. Right now i’m looking at a Dodge Avenger or a Pontiac Grand Prix, but hopefully leaning more towards a Avenger. Can’t wait to drive it!!!!!! I’m so excited!!!!!!! That’s all for now…— More later

Moments Change Me*

You know it’s been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments of our lives while they are happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them from granted and it’s usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you’ve realized how wrong you’ve been that you realized how wrong you’ve been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it.

This quote is true for every human being on this planet. No one realizes how good they have it until it’s gone. They don’t understand what it means to them and how much it means to them until it is gone. No one ever realizes those special moments when they’re happening. We grow used to things and then take them for granted, it’s normal for us to have those luxaries everyday. People don’t realize how wrong they were too treat that loved one the way they did. It always comes back to get them. They always regret treating them that way. You realize how much you need them how much they mean too you. It’s just too bad they have to treat you bad to realize it…

This week that i’ve been sick, i’ve realized that people do take MANY things for granted. We think that we just “deserve” this kind of life…  Truth is we don’t just “deserve” this kind of life, we have to work for this life. I regret the way I treated some people, I regret some of the mistakes i’ve made in my life. I needed to realize what a great life I have. Don’t take everything you have for granted… because one day… all that you have.. may just be gone.. forever.

–Many people can say they’re in love, it’s so easy for people to say they’re in love… You’ll know if you’re in love, your heart skips a beat everything you see them You get butterflies everytime you know you’ll see them. You need to find taht someone that makes you feel speical maek you’re heart skip a beat and you never want to leave them… Everyone has a soul mate out their, we each just need to find him/her. Be patient and wait for them, you’re perfect soulmate.

This is a note so someone special- you need a reality check, a wake up call. You don’t know how good you have it. You have no idea what you mean too me. But everytime you lie ot me or let me down, i lose a piece of that love. That love that fills my heart is missing pieces, you’be taken those pieces away from me and i don’t know how to get it back. I really can’t figure it out because to me, there is no way to get those pieces back because you continue too lie to me and make me feel bad. You never have been able to tell me why you lie too me, and everytime you tell me you won’t do it again, you always do. I always find out and i don’t understand why you continue to do it. I find out EVERY SINCE TIME, it never fails… You make no sense too me and it’s frustrating. Eventually, there will be no love there, there won’t be any left because you will make it all disappear and then what will happen… I don’t understand why you lie to me?!? I don’t think I do anything to deserve it, since this life changing event has happened i think i am VERY leniant on what i agree too and what i don’t. Don’t even try and make me feel bad about this either because i am taking out my anger. I am letting go.

*Every sone has a CODA, a final movement. Whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends. Is that any reason to not enjoy the music? The trush is, there is nothing to be afraid of. It’s just life.*

CODA: Final section of a musical piece: in some pieces of music, a final section that adds dramatic energy to the work as a whole.

Every song ends, every life ends. Just because life ends, is that any reason to not enjoy life?? – Music ends, the song is over, but is that a reason to not enjoy the song before it ends? 

My dad found out he had Leukemia on December 23, 2008. A day before Christmas, my best friend was away in Cancun, Mexico and i had to call her, on her vacation and say, my dad had cancer… It killed to know that i was going to ruin her vacation for her, but i had to tell someone and she would be one of the ONLY people that would understand… On December 24th before we had our Christmas Dinner, my dad took us 3 kids into the living room and sat us down and said… “I hope this isn’t the last, i know it isn’t the last time we’ll be able to snowmobile together, but just in case… Lets, us 4 go out for a ride before I start Chemo.“– This is a conversation that i’ll never forget, it will never be out of my head, i’ll always remember that ride. That ride meant so much too me, i can’t even explain… That was the one and only last ride that i’ll ever have with my dad.

He went to EVERY SINCE ONE of my brother’s basketball games that he could. If he was strong enough, he’d be there. He didn’t want us kids to miss out on ANYthing in our lives or not do anything because he was sick. He knew that he very well may not make it out alive, he knew that, and he DID NOT quit living his life. He worked from the hospital, he walked his ass off to try and gain strength… — He never quit living, he never gave up, He never let it beat him… He did not give up ever… — From the end of March till May 7th, He didn’t hardly talk, he couldn’t breathe without his ventilator very often… HE NEVER GAVE UP, he fought until the VERY last day… the VERY last day, He went into cardiac arrest around 2 o’clock in the morning of Thursday, May 7th. They called my mom and grandma to the hospital because they weren’t sure if he was going to make it… My mom and grandma went there and sat with him till 5:30 a.m. when finally my mom said “You don’t have to fight anymore, You never gave up and did your best to beat this and you did… We WILL be okay, I will be okay, the kids WILL be okay… You’ve done everything you could for us…It’s okay to let go…” AT THAT MOMENT, he let go… He didn’t let go until he KNEW that his family was going to be okay… He didn’t let go.. and we’re so  proud of him for that, we are so proud of what he accomplished…He never waited for it too end, he always tried his best… and did what he could to keep living…

Songs end… it’s called the REPEAT button, restart. If you’re life isn’t all that you hoped it would be, restart, change your ways and MAKE your life everything you hope it is. You don’t have as much money has you hoped, MAKE that money… You have to help yourself, if you set yourself up too fail, you’re probably going to fail. Don’t set yourself up for that… You HAVE to help yourself…

Why Lyrics–

It must a been a place so dark, couldn’t feel the light
Reachin’ for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This can’t be the way you meant to draw a crowdsong
Mmmmmmmgame
When you took the stage you shined just like the sunRascal Flatts Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

Oh why that’s what I keep askin’
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul, god only knows
What went wrong and why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the

Oh why that’s what I keep askin’
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking the troubled soul, oh god only knows
What went wrong and why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song
Yeah yeah yeah
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Now the oak trees are swayin’ in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain’t that bad a place

Oh why there’s no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain
Oh but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn’t worth the fight
They were wrong
They lied
And now you’re gone
And we cried

Cause It’s not like you to walk away in the middle of a song

Your beautiful song
Your absolutely beautiful song

Live your life too the fullest, do everything you can and want too do… Life is not about waiting for it too end, it’s not about being afraid to live, be free. There is no reason to not enjoy music. No reason to not enjoy life. There is nothing to be afraid of… It’s only life, nobody gets out alive anyways…

Moments Change Me*

Who is standing next to you, when you imagine your furutre moments… Who is the first person that comes to your mind?  Whether it’s your mother, father, aunt, uncle, or significant other. Who will be that person thats there for your greatest moments? Who will experience thse moments? I hope you have someone that’s always their for you… someone who means everything too you, someone you can’t live without… I hope everyone of you finds that someone…

We all have a certain someone in mind that we want to spend our lives with– Most of us anyways… We hope and pray that they are our future… In this moment, the person we are with, they seem like our one and only, they are the only thing we know. It seems like there’s no one else out there, no one that would treat us better, make us feel better, and just plain ole be better for us. –Now, they seem perfect too us, they’re our one and only… but what if you find someone–better? If you’re not happy in the relationship that you’re in– there is someone out there that is the man/woman of your dreams. They will make you happy, smile, laugh, and just give you butterflies. — Granted that you may fight, have disagreements and occasionally make each other feel bad, BUT, you usually… come back to each other… and for the most part you’re happy, you may have found that someone.

More than enough, i hear “Oh high schoolers don’t know what love is. They have to idea how it feels to be in love. Absolutely no idea”. That my friend, is a bunch of BULL SH*T. Granted, i do agree that if you are a 14 year old girl/boy and you come home and tell your parents “OMG there is this guy Jimmy, and I’m totally in love him and i met him… hmmm 2 hours ago!” Yeah, probably not. I mean if that does happen too you, more power too ya… i guess!? — Back to my subject, High Schooler’s CAN in fact fall in love. I’m so sick of hearing parents or adults saying “oh well there is no way that she is in love with him, have you seen him?” That is NO joke, ADULTS, say this. Now as adults you would think that they would be the “mature” ones… well apparently they aren’t.

—– I met my boyfriend my freshman year of high school. That was two and a half years ago…Freshman year, yes we said i love you, but i didn’t actually realize what “i love you” really meant until probably about a year ago.  I still said it but it was kind of just a reaction, NOW, i say ‘i love you’ because i mean it, because it means something to me, it shows me something about our relationship. And I hope that my boyfriend says it because he means it and it means something too him. My boyfriend truely is the love of my life, i do honestly believe that we will get married someday. We’ve made it through so many obsitcles in our relationship from lieing, to moving out, going to college, and the passing away of loved ones. Granted, these were some very hard things for us to overcome, but we have and we’re past them and learned our lessons. Every relationship has obsticles and speed bumps and there is no way getting around them. It takes time and patience to get past these. If you truely love someone, then you’ll be willing too put the past behind you and move forward, focus on the future and not the past.

5 years from now… You’re sitting in a church, waiting for your wedding. You’re going to marry the man of your dreams… in exactly 5 minutes… That person standing up there, is that the person you always dreamed of? Is it who you thought it would be? — People always have dreams, they have visions for their futures, plans that they set. A lot of the time, those plans don’t always work out. Life doesn’t go the way we want it too– Relationships don’t go the way we plan, if i could have my perfect relationship, we would never fight, we wouldn’t go behind each other’s backs and o things that we know our significant other wouldn’t agree with, we wouldn’t take each other for granted, we’d be greatful for each other each and everyday. We would be head over heels in love with each other and no one else in the world would be able to break us apart. We would be faithful to each other and put 100% into our relationship. I wish this was the way life works… but unfortunately, it isn’t. It’s no where close to it. Life is hard, it’s a challenge each and everyday and adding someone else into your equation, makes things almost twice as difficult. It is frustrating and hard to deal with but God never gives you more than you can handle. Yes, he tests you and gives you challenges, but he is always there to guide you down the right path. Just remember that even though life and relationships are hard, Don’t Give Up.

More later tonight*

Moment’s Change Me <3

This is one of my favorite quotes from One Tree Hill. It’s so true, there are so many people that are running scared of their lives and the things they have to face. Some are finally realizing that they can come home to their families. Some are telling lies to the people they love just to make themselves feel better and to help them make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth, they are pushing it out of their lives completely. Some are evil evil people that are trying purposly to not do good. Other’s are good and struggling with evil, trying to do the right things in their lives. There are six billion people in this world. SIX BILLION PEOPLE! SIX BILLION SOULS!! and very often, it only takes one, just one person, one soul to make you’re world. To make you feel safe, secure, and loved… I hope you all find that someone that makes you’re world, that one person, one soul. Everyone of us has someone out there for us. Everyone has a certian someone that makes them feel like the world is standing still when their together, gives them butterflies everytime they know they’ll see each other, that someone that makes you’re heart beat faster as they approach you. 

When you get out of your car, and you see the person you went too see and can’t wait too give them the biggest hug… that’s the one person that really matters too you. When i get out of my car, and i know i’ll see you soon, my heart starts to beat faster, i get butterflies in my stomach, because i know any minute that i’ll be in your arms, and nothing else in the world will matter… in that moment, you and i are the only things that matter in my life… You and Me baby… together…against the world…

Little moments like that… change me*